seconds.

it took me a while to decide if i wanted to blog about this our not. however, this is our family journal of sorts and i want to remember everything. good and bad. so i am posting this.

the reason i titled this post seconds is because that is how long it takes. seconds, for things to change. for something to go wrong.

the other night we were eating dinner. ayla had already ate and so we let her crawl around while we had dinner. she was right in the kitchen with us, just playing while we had dinner. it had been a long day of having the garage sale and so i made an easy dinner. we had loose meat sandwiches and chips. Briea had dropped some chips on the floor and Ayla had wandered over that way and scooped one up. (she has been eating solid foods as she has four teeth) so i was not in a huge rush to grab it from her. all of a sudden i could hear her coughing. i looked up and saw that she was having some problems. garran got to her first and scooped her up. he did a finger sweep with no luck. he then flipped her over and tried patting her on the back a few times, try to dislodge it. when he flipped her back over she was turning blue. my heart sank into my stomach. luckily garran and i both stayed calm, but it is still a nauseating feeling to see your child in trouble and feel as if nothing you are doing is working.

when garran flipped her back over i tried a finger sweep again, not really getting anything, so i tried again as he flipped her over and patted her back again. whatever we did must have worked because she vomited and was able to take a few breaths. a few seconds longer and i was going to be on the phone with 911. i was so thankful when i saw her take those first few breaths. garran rushed her to the bathroom to make sure she had gotten it all up and to clean her up. i calmed our other children down, as we were all sitting right there at the table together.
her color was not the same for about 20-30 minutes after. she was looking pale and splotchy. however she was alert and acting perfectly normal.

i am so thankful that things worked out ok. i have been counting my blessings every day since. every time i look at my sweet baby girl, i think how quickly things could have gone the other way. i am so thankful that she is ok. i truly feel blessed. i look at that picture above and can not imagine life without her.

make sure you hug your babies extra tight. i know i have been since Saturday!